Struggles With School, Truth, and Faith

Hey guys. I can’t believe how long it’s been, and I regret all the time that I was away. I’ve been so busy with school, staying up often past midnight to finish my work. I’ve finally had a break, and even though my grades aren’t where I’d like them to be, I’m glad I can finally write about a topic super close to my heart.

For those of you who don’t know, I attend a Christian School. Faith has always been indoctrinated into us since we were in kindergarten, and the Bible has never been a vague topic to me. I’ve had spiritual renewals before, but I always fell back into the same lull of never really devoting myself to my faith. I come from a family with different religions intertwined under one roof, so I celebrate other religions as well, but we’ve never been super religious as a family. I’ve always drawn closer to Christianity though, and I’m grateful I had the chance to explore other religions and choose rather than being born into just one religion.

After taking AP World under a phenomenal teacher who didn’t really provide a basis for Christianity holding truth, but instead unconsciously relating it to the final idea that religion is man-made and probably untrue, I fell out of my faith. I questioned everything. After taking AP Psychology, a class that centers around the idea that everything is seen through a lens known as the brain and everything we believe to be true is bias, I grew farther and farther away from what I once thought was true.

I figured it was finally time to see someone I knew and trusted. I went to go see one of the teachers, a person who has yet to teach me a class but has taught me so much about the world through philosophy and art. He told me that modern philosophy often believes that everything is relative and that nothing has truth. But then he told me that he doesn’t believe that to be true. Truth exists, and the reason we exist is to find the truth in the world. We have to hang on to the idea that we’re here for a reason, and there’s definitely truth in the world.

I won’t try to convince you to become Christian. Your faith is none of my business, and I respect whatever you choose personally. However, I encourage you to believe that truth exists, and not everything is necessarily relative. Some things are permanent and lasting.

And if you’ve ever experienced anything like this, please comment below, I’d love to hear from you.


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